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Belly, week 32
Jan. 21st, 2008 07:18 amStats:
Time: First day of week 32, beginning of 8th month
Weight: 159, up from 138-139 at beginning of pregnancy
Baby Size: roughly 4 pounds, 19 inches
Mood: sore and tired, but feeling positive
Weirdest feature: inside-out belly button
Cravings: none so far
Body image: weirdly OK, excepting loss of muscle tone (size is OK, but not so psyched out consistency)
Fears: c-section, breastfeeding, loss of stomach tone after pregnancy, that I won't like the kid that much
Weirdest non-physical feature: increased tolerance for bad music
Things are going well enough. Every day I wake up sure that this is the day I will stop working because I just can't handle being so tired, but every day I go to work and it's fine. Praise Jesus, I don't have swollen ankles and am not retaining water, I think that would make it quite difficult. Knees are still holding up, with only a little occasional tenderness. So if that keeps up, I work until the doc says to stop.
Speaking of, I had a really disappointing trip to the doctor's last Thursday. Turns out I actually lost a pound from two weeks prior. It's a weird thing, to be freaked out by gaining or by losing both. It's no win.
But worse, I finally met the female partner in the practice group, so I asked her a bunch of the questions that I hadnt before (I've really just finally put the birth plan together completely, and had lots of questions). So I asked her again about delivery positions, and unsurprisingly, she said that none of the doctors do anything but on-your-back style. The childbirth education instructor had said otherwise, which has allowed me to hope. then I told her about my mother being 2 weeks late and 30 hours in labor and me being 10 pounds, and asked her if my mother (who delivered normally), would be given a c-section if she or the other two docs were her OB.
Not only did she say that yes, in those circumstances, she would recommend a C-section (she said it in a nice enough way ... that my mother was "lucky"), but she got kind of defensive about it. Not meanly so, but definitely defensive. she never actually said "I'm the doctor so I know better," but you could kind of feel that that was the basic idea.
So I'm back to how I was feeling a month or so ago, which is that I'm really angry that there is so little choice involved in the process. Perhaps it'll be breach anyway (i have a higher than normal likelihood due to the shape of my uterus), which would make me more comfortable with the risk involved in undergoing major surgery. But if it's normal, and if I take after my mother, I'm going to be pissed if I get pressured into doing something that I don't want.
And it makes me angry at the feminist movement for so completely ignoring other aspects of "choice."
In better news, K came to visit this weekend, from Minnesota. She is, as always, beautiful, but a little depressed about having to hang in out there. Last time we talked, she was very pro-Minnesota and happy to be out of NY, but I suspect that she's figuring out that that's more because of personal circumstances than because the city doesnt suit. Anyway, it was a welcome change from the isolation of P'ton and so lovely to see her.
Time: First day of week 32, beginning of 8th month
Weight: 159, up from 138-139 at beginning of pregnancy
Baby Size: roughly 4 pounds, 19 inches
Mood: sore and tired, but feeling positive
Weirdest feature: inside-out belly button
Cravings: none so far
Body image: weirdly OK, excepting loss of muscle tone (size is OK, but not so psyched out consistency)
Fears: c-section, breastfeeding, loss of stomach tone after pregnancy, that I won't like the kid that much
Weirdest non-physical feature: increased tolerance for bad music
Things are going well enough. Every day I wake up sure that this is the day I will stop working because I just can't handle being so tired, but every day I go to work and it's fine. Praise Jesus, I don't have swollen ankles and am not retaining water, I think that would make it quite difficult. Knees are still holding up, with only a little occasional tenderness. So if that keeps up, I work until the doc says to stop.
Speaking of, I had a really disappointing trip to the doctor's last Thursday. Turns out I actually lost a pound from two weeks prior. It's a weird thing, to be freaked out by gaining or by losing both. It's no win.
But worse, I finally met the female partner in the practice group, so I asked her a bunch of the questions that I hadnt before (I've really just finally put the birth plan together completely, and had lots of questions). So I asked her again about delivery positions, and unsurprisingly, she said that none of the doctors do anything but on-your-back style. The childbirth education instructor had said otherwise, which has allowed me to hope. then I told her about my mother being 2 weeks late and 30 hours in labor and me being 10 pounds, and asked her if my mother (who delivered normally), would be given a c-section if she or the other two docs were her OB.
Not only did she say that yes, in those circumstances, she would recommend a C-section (she said it in a nice enough way ... that my mother was "lucky"), but she got kind of defensive about it. Not meanly so, but definitely defensive. she never actually said "I'm the doctor so I know better," but you could kind of feel that that was the basic idea.
So I'm back to how I was feeling a month or so ago, which is that I'm really angry that there is so little choice involved in the process. Perhaps it'll be breach anyway (i have a higher than normal likelihood due to the shape of my uterus), which would make me more comfortable with the risk involved in undergoing major surgery. But if it's normal, and if I take after my mother, I'm going to be pissed if I get pressured into doing something that I don't want.
And it makes me angry at the feminist movement for so completely ignoring other aspects of "choice."
In better news, K came to visit this weekend, from Minnesota. She is, as always, beautiful, but a little depressed about having to hang in out there. Last time we talked, she was very pro-Minnesota and happy to be out of NY, but I suspect that she's figuring out that that's more because of personal circumstances than because the city doesnt suit. Anyway, it was a welcome change from the isolation of P'ton and so lovely to see her.
